So here I am again, I’ve been asked by several people when I was gonna post a new blog, so I guess I should write something huh.
But see here in lies the problem, I never know what to write about. I mean what would be interesting to the people who visit this half done site? I could talk about the difficulties I’ve been having lately, well difficulties I think many people are having. The economy is horrible right now with predictions of it getting far worst before it gets any better. We have a new President, who I know isn’t a miracle worker, but he still gives me Hope that things are going to get somewhat better. But as for the here and now, things are in a frightening state. I feel the worst for my kids, they cant understand why we had to move out of our house or why they cant have certain things or why we cant go and do the things we use to do a few years back.
I am finding life with my first child, although hard at times was also so much easier. I mean first of all I didn’t have his father involved at all, so if I wanted to move I could move. I could raise him the way I wanted and expose him to so much culture. It was a wonderful time when it was just him and I. I’m finding life is a lot harder when you have children with a father who on occasion wants to be here for them. Because in these hard times, I’ve been asked to move out of State by several family members, because there is work where they are, but it would be a constant Court Battle with my Ex Husband. He doesn’t care that life would be easier for our children and myself, it’s not even like he sees the kids a lot, 8 hours a week with next to no over nights. It’s a very frustrating thing. But it is another thing that makes me long for the, shall I say the good old days.
I am dreaming of the day things will be like they were before I had all the troubles that come with an ex husband or more so with having children with an ex husband. My spirit hasn’t been broken to the point where I think things will never get better, but it is very battered & bruised. The first step is getting my feet back on the ground, regaining that independence, then I know thing’s will fall into place. When that day happens I will be such a better Mother to my children and a better person all around. I’ll be able to show my two younger children the mom their older brother had, the mom who didn’t worry & cry so much, the mom who knew everything would be alright, just because I had faith that it would be.
I’ve had this post sitting here for weeks now, trying to figure out how to end it. But after rereading it today I think I will just end it where I did. I’m sure there’s more I could add, but we’ll just save that for another post I think.
Tags: Children, Economy, Ex Husband, Life
I am intertested in anything and everything that you write and posted on this site. Kids are not going to understand everything at such a young age or why they cant have everything either. Not every father is going to be so understanding about what best for their children, some might just do things to get back at the mother without thinking what the outcome is. You shouldnt let things or a man break your spirt, or harm it in anyway, and I think youre a great mother right now, no matter how much or how little they have, some mother dont even do what you do. I cant wait for the more to be added and for another post.
awwwwww love d foto…. sooo cute…. now u want an honest comment? our past is our past ~ things weve experienced so we can learn n grow n evolve as human beings ~ but then if there is no flow we need to let go n move on… go forward in life without turning back… as the only thing that matters is the present moment…. thats where ur whole life exists… ~love u~
Here’s another honest comment. You sound like you are trying your hardest to be a good mother, not every ex husband tries to even spend 8 hours a week with their kids. The best mom would realize that a father is as important to her kids as she is as their mother. Your kids will be better off in the long run if they have a father in their life that is stable. You may be able to find better work in another state, but you need to do what is best for your kids and that’s allowing their father to be involved in their lives. Whatever happend to end your marriage happened for a reason.
Keep the faith that things will get better, even if you don’t think they will.
Thanks for sharing this very personal part of your life.
Believe it or not, you’re doing a great job! I don’t think you need anyone else to tell you that, whatever your feelings towards your ex, it’s important for him to be involved in your kids’ lives.
You’ve realized that moving out of state would not be a good option. You’ve put your kids first. You deserve a lot of credit for that.
Now you’ve got find a way to make things work from where you are. You’ll do it!
If anyone reading this is in the position to offer pcornqueen an opportunity, you ought to snap her up….fast! If you don’t, someone else will. She’s a real “people person.” She truly cares about people and their needs. If that fits in with your vision, you need pcornqueen.
Keep that hope alive
Keep your chin up. It seems the further down a hill we travel, the harder it is to see the clear sky at the top of the next hill. It will be there when you get there. Just need to keep pressing forward and not look at the road behind. We are all still blessed to have life, children, and a roof over our heads. I know it might not be the ideal situation, but there’s a plan for us all (I honestly believe there is a plan that He has for us all… what you believe is what you believe.)
Chris, you’ve never been one to give up on anything or anyone, even if the road is tough. That’s one thing I have always admired about you. You care for your family and friends, and are loyal to them all. I know things will get better, even if they might appear to get worse before the good times once again come. Keep smiling!
You shouldn’t feel like a bad mom just cause you’re in a position where you have to struggle. Just try and be strong and give your self a little more credit.. and try and believe in your self the best you can.. lol, not that I’m one to talk!
I wish you have a good time with your children,I trust you that you will devote your all life to your children, all people will bless for you
I cannot believe that Hart was on WWE Raw last week! I hope we can see him soon! I miss him